Living in the now

Today when I was dropping off my daughter at school, I was behind a car who had a bumper sticker that read: "I'D RATHER BE HERE NOW" I have been behind this car before and I've even read this bumper sticker before but today I read it and I thought about it. I have had several conversations with family and friends about living in the moment. I have even made it a resolution for more than one new year. So how is it that I constantly loose focus of this seemingly simple mantra? I think part of my trouble is that we are a military family. Our whole entire lives are constantly changing and restarting. The minute we get to our new duty station my brain automatically starts the countdown until we leave. It's how I cope with the constant moving. Being a military family comes with it's many challenges but I think one of it's benefits is the constant change. I actually have anxiety about the day we separate from the military, just knowing that I will be living someone where for the rest of my life makes me feel trapped. There are many days in the first few weeks of arriving to a new duty station where I would rather not be where I am. The unpacking, finding a house, school, doctor, dentist and friends all over again can be quite a pain. Then add the sad faces of my kids looking at me because they miss their buddies at our last station and their old school it really causes my mood to turn sour. This is when I think I would rather be anywhere but here. Then we settle in and all is well again and I just try to enjoy the moment. Then their is my personal life and development. I am constantly thinking I really want to move forward to the next level, I don't want to be HERE any longer. My nose is forever in a book or jotting in my journal all my wonderful ideas. I just want to get to a place in my personal life where I love being where I am. However, I realize no matter how many more moves we have or where I am in personally it's all apart of my life's story. If I want to be able to look back and be excited about telling my story I need to APPRECIATE BEING HERE NOW.

What is the lesson

It seems like many of my friends and family are going through hardships right now in there life and I admittedly have been really judging their situations. However, the holy spirit has been convicting me because who am to judge someones situation. I don't know what they have gone through or what they are dealing with. I just plan to learn from their hardships, what is the Lord telling me about my situation. It's only by the grace of God I am where I am today and I know that at any moment all my wealth, health and peace could be stripped away. I challenge everyone to pray for others and learn from every situation.

Destination Nowhere

Lately I have been on this search for my purpose in life. I have met so many people in my lifetime who are fulfilling their  purpose or at least doing something they really love. Then there is me I seem to be on this endless path to Nowhere! The crazy thing is I have the support from my family especially my husband to explore what I want to do. I personally think my husband is sick of hearing me complain about how bored I am with my life. I think as children and teens we have this idea of what our life is going to be like, then we grow up. I always had this image of me being married, with children while working as a top level executive in a major corporation. I even have my degree in business admin. However, I married my high school sweetheart who serves in the United States Coast Guard, had 3 awesome children and we move every 3-4 years. The moving around all the time has really put a kink in my plans to be that high level executive. I also think my aspirations have changed. On most days I love my life being a stay at home mom, then I get into weeks where I just have an urge for something new. I don't know what it is exactly that God has planned for my life but I feel like I'm getting close to finding out. Pretty soon this road to Nowhere will be leading me Somewhere and I have no doubt that it will be great.