IT'S HARD ENOUGH BEING ME

I went over to my friends house today after our run to try some of her organic peanut butter. When I walked in I was immediately hit in the face with fresh clean sent of a tidy house. As I looked around my eyes were taking in every clean nook and cranny, nothing out of place. My thoughts immediately drifted to my own home, where currently there is so much stuff piled on my kitchen island that I feel like I am going to have a mini heart attack. Not to mention that my friend totally kicked my butt on our run this morning. Granted I am also doing the run with her but I am always looking at her back and I even had to stop for water. Que self loathing music and low self esteem. I can't seem to kick this habit of constantly comparing myself to all of my friends and being upset because I just can't seem to measure up. I want someone to want to be like me. I know that I am a good person and I truly love my life. I just have little moments of "the crazies." Then I remind myself that just like you have to eat right and work out to maintain a healthy body, you have to do the same for your mind. You have to make sure that you are bragging to yourself about yourself. Make sure you are continuing to educate your self. Make sure your always in forward motion of reaching your goals. It never hurts to put a little lipstick on to make sure you look good too. Stop living in your head and feeding your negative thoughts you are so WORTH it and make sure you know that for yourself.

DON'T LET THE DOOR HIT YOU ON YOUR WAY OUT

I had a particular rough night of sleep, not very restful and I think I am fighting a bit of a cold. The minute I drug my butt out of bed this morning, I decided Starbucks would be a essential part of my morning. After I gathered the kids together and dropped them off at school. I pulled into Starbucks for my cup of sanity. I was toting my infant daughter in one hand. As I headed up to the door their was a older gentleman about 4 steps ahead of me. He got to the door and I had closed the gap to about 3 steps behind him. Then it happened, he opened the door walked through and let it close practically in my face! I was so close to him that the lady coming out of the door looked at him then me. I couldn't believe that he didn't hold the door open for me, HOW RUDE! I guess they aren't lying when they say chivalry is dead. It certainly was this morning. It just reminds me that it's another thing i need to instill in my kids (not just my son).